Silver Linings

I’m a seeker. A optimist, by nature. I tend to analyze a situation and find the positive. I know, it’s annoying to some. I’ve wallowed in the mire of self pity many a time but there’s something intrinsic to my nature that ALWAYS leads me to look for the positive, the silver lining. I had to employ all of my might to do this the past couple of days. They weren’t necessarily bad days, just challenging.
I am in sales. A different breed for sure. I’m not cut throat, nor do I participate in unethical activities to ensure I meet my quota. I just don’t. Agnostic in nature, I believe in karma. That all knowing entity of sorts that will kick your ass AND reward you for your behavior. So, herein lies the question. Why the fuck am I getting my ass kicked? If only this karmic being would tell me. I work hard. I do my job as I’m told. Yet still. My ass gets kicked. I feel like crying “Not Fair!” But that would be weak, childlike. No, no. I won’t be “that” person. I’ll power through this with my head held high and muster that positive, upbeat attitude I am known for and look forward. Forward to all of my successes to come. I pride myself on my positive outlook, but lately it been difficult to muster. Maybe I’ll try meditation or marijuana… I’ve heard it makes one happy or at the very least, relaxed. Decisions,decisions……